| Thursday, November 11th, 2004 |
| 8:45 am |
I am...still alive. Maybe I should have stayed in school... |
| Monday, November 1st, 2004 |
| 10:05 pm |
...nothing has been happening lately... ... nothing new has been happening lately. It's just been day after day... Oishi sempai...I haven't seen for a while. But the Aozu signing was a nice change... |
| Friday, October 15th, 2004 |
| 1:01 am |
annou.
Nothing much interesting. Have an autograph signing arrangement by Kajimoto sensei which I'll be attending. I'll post up my lyric analysis sometime soon because it's been...something I've been thinking about lately. I think a lot baout the lyrics after they pour out of me and I've just had so much on my mind. Talked to Fujisempai about it and I'm thinking about going over to visit him sometime just for someone to talk to. Maybe tezukasempai as well. Well I guess if I need someone to talk to. Oyaji is always just..downstairs. Well we don't need no one to tell us what to do
Oh yes we're on our own
And theres nothing you can do
So we don't need no one like you
To tell us what to do
Cos I'm a brat
And I know everything
And I talk back
Cos I'm not listening
To anything you say
And if you count to 3 (one, two, three)
You'll see it's no emergency
You'll see I'm not the enemy
Just a Prisoner of Society. |
| Tuesday, October 5th, 2004 |
| 6:40 pm |
I haven't been able to write lately.
I've only been able to write one song...and it's not the best song at that...I'll probably scrap it... ( Crying Sky )I'll...maybe write up some..meaning behind it..later...right now I'm just.. ..whatever. |
| 4:46 pm |
Cheh.
I left the reception early. There was nothing to do there and people were starting to leave anyway. I'm so sick of those RI.Sing guys though, with their "And even Aozu." What and even aozu? I worked hard on that stupid song and ...argh who cares. Whatever. (OOC - gomen about the last log..*sigh* thought it might be fun to make the characters run around for a bit..add some drama..burst the RP. I need some excitement..I been working every single day for the last week. *dead* Aaaaaaand. *feeling lonely* someone come play with me T.T *fluff withdrawal*) |
| Wednesday, September 22nd, 2004 |
| 7:33 pm |
[Life Goes On]
( Aozu )( Kajimoto-sensei )13 Leaves is all I'm really listening to at the moment. Her voice haunts me. I want to get their new music video Tobenai Tori but I haven't really been able to leave my room without fangirls harrassing me to go back to bed or trying to feed me or take my clothes from me to wash or whatever. Why can't oyaji just keep them off me? (OOC: aww we all know it's because he worries) Bah anyway. [Lately I've been just thinking about life in general. There's so much to wonder and suddenly getting sick like that just kicked me. I lost so much time I should have been working on things for Aozu. Maybe it's just Chisako Mikami making me think. 僕はこの世界に 生まれてきてよかったんだね・・・？ ("Was it OK for me to be born to this world...?") Just questions like that really. I mean I haven't contributed much, I haven't done all that much. If anything I've just hurt a lot of people. 僕の心は「何か」が欠けているから 無意識に人を傷つけてしまうんだ でも、こんな僕にもまだ誰かの心に強く 刻める「何か」が与えられてるとしたら (There is "something" missing from my heart, so unconsciously I hurt people. But if I'm given this "something" that I can mark deeply on other people's hearts.) I'm just feeling lost recently. I haven't done much except stay in my room and while the time away. I haven't been able to play music because I've been tired or my body wouldn't listen to me and until today I thought nobody had noticed really. But that's the way life falls.] (brackets are all OOC comments..so yea those translations aren't actually supposed to be there seeing as how everyone should be able to read japanese. And the square brackets denote english so that entire half entry is written in english. ^^ Okay so that's my "back to RP" entry feel free to poke for RPness.) |
| Sunday, September 19th, 2004 |
| 8:05 am |
What's been happening to me? I woke up today and all the fangirls were hanging around, bringing food in and little towels and stuff. Saying weird things like "Nanjirou was so worried". As if Oyaji would be worried. I guess i was sick or something since I haven't gotten out of bed for the last week. Well, it's starting to pass now I guess. I wonder how everyone's doing and how our single did. I'll check later. Right now I just want to go back to bed. |
| Wednesday, September 8th, 2004 |
| 6:50 pm |
Fra-Foa
I guess one of the biggest influences to the type of music I wanted to portray for [Life Goes On] would be Fra-Foa. They're the only band really that has spoken to me while I was growing up. One of the reasons I agreed to come to Japan and perform here rather than stay in America. I guess I'd like to meet Chisako-san one day and learn from her. Writing and composing everything on her own. A new DVD is scheduled for release soon. Maybe I'll be able to pick it up. Although I'm not sure if I can. (OOC: I'm sorry I couldn't resist. Everyone should listen to Fra Foa. Chisako's voice speaks to everyone. And if you read lyric translations while you listen to her songs you'll be moved. I was...just about all of my friends were.) Current Music: Fra-Foa - light of sorrow |
| Saturday, September 4th, 2004 |
| 7:55 am |
what have I been up to..?
Since the other day...I guess I've just been mellowing in my room. I haven't had many creative juices flowing so I've just been playing our old songs on my guitar and trying out new tunes. There isn't much really. I cleaned my room the other day and I stumbled over some old pictures. I found one of us from last year after band practise. I really need someone to jam with. Maybe I'll message Yuuta or something later. Although Aozu haven't dropped by for a visit in a long time too. Maybe I should get out more. ( Picture ) |
| Tuesday, August 31st, 2004 |
| 1:50 pm |
A joint concert with Cap to Bin. That'll be interesting. I haven't been told much though but at least Oyaji is letting us help with the costume co-ordination. I'm not wearing those stupid outfits he wore during his career. My bruises are healing up. Not that a certain person didn't help them get worse before they had a chance to heal. And even worse I let that person stay the night. Damn Yuuta. Well his company was nice. I needed someone to just be here for a while I guess. It's just stupid. I haven't been doing much lately. Kajimoto-sensei asked me what I wanted to do with my song but there's nothing really. I've explained the song as I see it and thats all I wanted to do. There's nothing else I want to portray with it. Hopefully the fans will accept an english song. |
| Saturday, August 28th, 2004 |
| 10:15 am |
Argh..
Couldn't sleep last night...I've been listening to that cd all day but it still doesn't seem worth what I had to go through to get it. I couldn't even express myself through music or lyrics. It's gotten to the point where even Oyaji's fangirls have decided to leave me alone and they're hard to kick off. AARGH! Well..something has come out of it. I've been playing with my new tablet and programs. There's an old photo that Aozu took together and I wanted to work it into a new album cover. Well, I'm uploading it here for people who want to preview it. I'm so tired. And the back of my neck hurts. |
| Friday, August 27th, 2004 |
| 10:54 am |
I can't believe this is happening.
I leave the house to buy a cd. Someone kisses me. I go to buy another cd and that boy kisses me again. Then I go to RI.Sing to talk to Kajimoto-sensei and the friend of that guy who tried to kiss me tries to beat me up because his friend kissed me twice. I'm never leaving the house again. Never. I'm just going to stay inside for ever. Everyone just leave me the fuck alone, I don't want to deal with this anymore. Pulltab to Can people are freaky. Short tempered Kamio and the strange Shinji. I don't want to meet any more if they're all like that. (*just about mental break down from stressing ¬.¬*) |
| Saturday, August 21st, 2004 |
| 7:11 pm |
To explain to the people about my song.
For the people who don't understand my song because it's written in english and for people that might want to know the meaning behind my words. ( Life Goes On Explanation - Ryoma's Life )Well...I think I'll stop writing now because the person that's in the room here with me has stopped playing the piano. It was quite a nice song actually but yea. Well, whatever. (OOC: Ryoma started tapping away on his computer during the YuutaRyoma rp and this is the result of it. That RP log shall be posted soon. BTW nobody is supposed to know about their relationship so shhh =p your characters have to be oblivious.) |
| 10:46 am |
It took me a whole day.
I spent the entire day just sussing out the lyrics I wanted. Writing and re-writing. Oyaji walked in a few times just to laugh at me. Pointing and saying that I spend too much time with my pens and papers. I wanted to get this right though. It'll be the first song I wrote since leaving school and there was so much I wanted to write into it. Fuji-sempai says I should start by just writing randomly all my thoughts and gather them later. So I did. It was such a mess and so much paper was thrown around but I got there. I guess I wanted to write a song about going towards the future. About my life where it stands with Aozu. I got the lyrics down. Wrote them maybe 20 - 25 times before I got the wording that I wanted. But it's done. And I'm happy. I couldn't get the words to express in japanese so it did end up being an english song after all. I haven't been able to compose the music for it though. I tried really hard but it just never comes out sounding right. But if you wonder how I got the title for the song. I took it from my online journal yes. [Life Goes On] is just something I tell myself a lot after all that has happened. I'm not sure if Oishi-sempai catches me doing it but I tend to mutter that a lot sometimes. Well, that's all, I think I'll end by posting the lyrics so people can have a preview of what I have been going through. Not I have to clean my room of all the mess I made. So much paper thrown everywhere. Argh. I do this everytime I decide to write something new. ( Life Goes On )In my next journal entry..I might explain that this song means to me... OOC: Square brackets means that Ryoma's speaking in english. |
| Friday, August 20th, 2004 |
| 2:03 pm |
Tezuka-semapi believes that all the songs we've performed up until now...aren't professional enough for our career with RI.Sing. We're going to have to write all new songs then? I've been trying really hard but I just...haven't been able to come up with anything. I guess I'll spend the rest of today trying to write a new song. Maybe write something in english just to add a bit of spice. Really I don't see anything wrong with the songs that we have now though. Ah well, whatever. I'll spend the rest of today on it. (OOC...makes sense right? Since we are assuming they're all japanese so thus journal entries are written in japanese unless otherwise specified? Otherwise the comment about "writing a song in english" wouldn't make sense. ^^ And his is how "Life Goes On" is born...to be continued) |
| Thursday, August 19th, 2004 |
| 10:27 am |
Practising late.
I'm so tired lately from practising late. Kajimoto-sensei would like to discuss our next record deal with us so we're going to have an aozu meeting soon. Will that samurai idea really stick? I can see the rest of oyaji's crazy ideas now. He must be stopped. Aah I have to try and accept him but all the fangirls that keep hanging around our house because of oyaji are so annoying! I had an online chat with Kikumar and Tezuka last night. Momoshiro came and barged in on the conversation. Ah well. I might go catch some sleep and play with Karupin. |
| Monday, August 16th, 2004 |
| 10:11 am |
I had a talk with Tezuka-sempai today. He had talked to my Oyaji and saw our costume designs. I can't believe we're trusting him to do that. I think I'll just do some lyrical practiseat work today rather than go home. I really don't want to see what he has planned for our first media appearance. How can Kajimoto-sensei agree to that kind of stuff? Well I'm definitely not listening to them if it's going to be embarrassing. I'm here for the music not the publicity stunt. Then Tezuka mentioned something about there being more to life than music? Music is my life though. Oishi-sempai managed to convince me of that before and I really believe it. Why else would I leave school early to continue with this band. Tezuka-sempai is a little confusing sometimes. ( Private to Tezuka )And Fuji-sempai's comments about me in the interview he had with Jirou-san. I can't believe the things he said. ( Private to Fuji ) |
| Sunday, August 15th, 2004 |
| 10:24 am |
Band of Princes issue 01
I was told by Kajimoto-sensei to have a look at the pullout to Monthly Pro-Idol and what I saw there was a little, just a tad, extremely irritating. Secret relations with Momoshiro Takeshi? The incident was all his fault to begin with anyway so it has nothign to do with me. Kajimoto-sensei isn't very happy though. At least Karupin is here with me. Karupin will keep me company. The source was right though. I do hate that Momo. He's rude and hits me with basketballs and I just don't like him. That Momoshiro-SEMPAI. |
| Saturday, August 14th, 2004 |
| 7:36 pm |
A small update.
I just found out that oyaji applied as Aozu's image advisor and got accepted. I can't believe that happened. I talked to Oishi-sempai for a bit about it and thought maybe we could fire him since our careers hadn't really taken off yet but Oishi-sempai said we couldn't and I don't want a perverted old man to be the band's image advisor. I also had a run in with some people from Cap to Bin the other day and it was something I'd prefer to not remember. Fuji-sempai has gone to the wilds to write a song. Maybe we can use it as our first release single. |
| Wednesday, August 11th, 2004 |
| 3:47 pm |
This is a new beginning.
Well, I've pretty much given up school now. The others approached me and decided that they wanted me to stay a part of the band and we've pledge to make ourselves the number one in Japan. If any random people come across this journal I'm part of a band called Aozu. Tezuka Kunimitsu, Fuji Syuusuke and Oishi Syuuichirou are the others that are in the band with me. We write and perform our own songs and have recently decided that we should give it a real attempt at fame. I want everyone to hear my songs. Thought that I'd like a place to just write down my thoughts during this part of my life and this is a nice way to do it. Also, Fuji thinks that maybe when we get a little more popular the fans would like a place to get to know us better or something. I'm not quite so sure about that part but oh well, he's my sempai after all so I'll take his advice. It's going to get busy from now on so yeah. |
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